thanksgiving

its thanksgiving! i've been entertained and welcomed by 2 wonderful families this year as i couldn't be home with my own family.  it was wonderful to have them welcome their homes to me (and to have them stuff me to the brim two days in a row...mmmm yum yum). 

i miss my family today, and am looking forward to the day that i can have them all together again.  i am a little sad that my family doesn't come together accept for when i go home, so they all do their own thing until i come home.  i'm sad in my heart that my mother and grandmother can't get along, and how they are both ruthlessly selfish about the whole thing.  This means my grandpa spends a lot of time alone (or without his loved ones around, when he has done nothing but love everyone). 

i am also feeling disheartened that my best-friend's boyfriend is going through an especially tough time as his mother struggles through the last weeks of her life with cancer.  my heart goes out to him and his family and i hope they find peace in their life struggles through this difficult time.

all together, seeing the good brought out in my urban families, watching the ridiculousness of my own family's bullshit, then seeing a family loose their headmaster; this thanksgiving is really making me evaluate what i have to be thankful for.  Great friends, a loving boyfriend, and a family who loves me dearly (even though they don't care for each other all that much).  I am also thankful that my university days will be coming to an end in december, and that i am going to have to fully come to terms with my inner control-freak as i have no clue what my next step in life will be (although i pray it will be a step closer to making a family of my own).

so to anyone who hasn't taken stock of what they have been offered in their lives, take some time to reflect on your loved ones, and lessons learned.  it never hurts, and it will likely open your heart.

happy thanksgiving,
xo
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